Who am i??? Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Hmmmmmmm.

Well, im not in a good mood today. I didnt do anything wrong, and yet everything is all wrong. words are being put in my mouth, people from my past are here and i dont know i feel about that... they are the people that i thought i could live without but it seems that i cant. Nathan is back... i dont know what im going too do. We had a huge fight the last time i talked to him and other people got involved... i dont know how this will work out. I guess we will find out wont we.

She is..........

She is strong because she knows what its like to be weak, she is strong willed, and she keeps her guard up because she knows what its like to cry herself to sleep at night. She feels so helpless yet shes always helping... She feels so alone yet everyone is around her. She wants to remain silent yet she has so many words. She feels fearless yet she remains scared, she feels crazy yet shes calm. She feels like shes fading yet shes always bright, she feels broken but shes altogether. but she doesn't know who she is, why? why doesn't she know who she is? There is no one who can help her figure it out. shes all on her own for this mission that seems impossible.

Moving On......

Moving on isnt the easiest thing to do. How do you move on when you dont know or have anything to move on to. What we fear most is the unknown the fear of not knowing whats going to come next, not knowing what might jump out at you. But what i fear the most is forgetting. Sometimes I wish I could forget everything, have my mind go blank. Sometimes I wish I could forget who I am. I know I am loved but that doesnt stop the hurt. I know who i wanna be and I know who I am, and theres a fine line between those two. You can control my mind take my heart and soul, but wha you cant take my dignity, confidence, and my love. I know what its like to love someone. It can make you speechless, take your breath away, and it can knock you flat on your ass, it can be the most beautiful, painful, loving thing in the whole world. So how can i move one when thats what i want?

Depression............

Depression can hit everyone  one way or another. Depression is a big fan of Ashleigh... let me tell ya, it just keeps coming back at all different angles. There is noo stopping it. You can say hi and put a smile on, but its crawling at your insides, taring you apart piece by piece and  limb from limb. Till all your left with is a beating heart and a shell to with it. You loose yourself . Some find themselves again..... others don't. If your like me, you find yourself then lose it again and again through tragity after tragity. Depression can hit everyone, so get out of the way before you get ran over flat....

Just Dont Know Anymore..................

Sometimes life is a hard place to live in............... especially when your depressed but me? im not quite sure yet............. there is things that hapen in life that your not ssure if you can handle, people toy with your feeling without one thought about what it will do to you........ i hate people sometimes i know i it not a good thing to say you hate someone but sometimes there is nothing but pure hatred you can have towards someone.... well lets just say Karma's a bitch....and she coming back biting. well thats all for today, will see if life gets better.....